Saturday, July 26, 2014

* birthdays and a beach day. *

WHERE has the summer gone, i ask you?

it seems way more busy then summer's past.
or. is it just because i am 36 now, and can't keep up?



karolina grace turned THREE this week.
can hardly believe it.
bare with me, i know i say that EVERY year...

[my labor with karolina started at midnight on july 23, 2011 and i was holding her in my arms
at 3:32 a.m. my fastest labor was two hours, which i was expecting, with my 5th delivery...
i thought 3.5 was too long. :)) i gave birth at birth care in Georgetown, in the water. my favorite.
no meds. just. plain. ol. water. that's how i roll. :)]

delighted to have karolina in our family.
i love her spunky character. her favorite lines right now are:
"just a minute mom"
"punchbuggy. no punchbacks"
she loves to ride bike. put together puzzles. play play dough.
DANCE. loves to dance. and SING.
she loves to pray outloud. (be still my heart. help me never forget her little prayers).
happy to say she was my easiest to potty train.
hallelujah for that. :)
our next job to tackle will be getting rid of her nuk...


Happy THIRD birthday karolina.
you are treasured and precious.
i hope you always know.

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the buckwalter family used to take a vacation together each year to the beach.
for a week.
chaos yes. fun. totally. still love each other in the end. yep.
but. we don't do it anymore.

so this year i decided to plan a cousins beach day, DAY trip, once a month.
june. july. and august.
well. june's got cancelled. and well. july's got rescheduled three times.
but finally. we made it.
on karolina's third birthday.

relaxing. not really. a time to catch up. not really.
memory making for the kids. yep.
fun in the sun. yep.
time to read a good book. nope.
any kids get lost? nope. notta one.
with 18, that's pretty remarkable.


calli ann. age 5.
campbell meg. age 7.
kaden rockwell. age 11.
karolina grace. she's 3. ;)
kaycee agnes. age 9.

jaiden micah. he doesn't belong to me. but he loves me.
can you tell?
he is my sister's. ;)

the girls were trying to skim board here. :)
can you imagine the drama in a few years?
no wonder my parents put a stop to the beach trip now.
before.the.drama.  :)))

such a fun day.
here's to the next one on august 7th.
whoo.hoo. :)


and finally...
kaden rockwell turned 11 a day after karolina turned 3.

i was so disappointed about that, when karolina was born.
2 weeks late again. as usual.
and really. she had to come so close to kaden's birthday?

it's really not THAT big of a deal.
i mean. here in America we can find anything to complain about.

SERIOUSLY. tell me to get a grip.

it's just a lot of partying and celebrating so close.
and i try to DO birthdays.
i really do.
so. part of that is my own fault.

if i would just simmer down a little bit,
i wouldn't be so exhausted after karolina and kaden's birthdays. :)))

[kaden weighed in at 8 lbs. 4 oz. he was only ONE day overdue. and then with the girls i got progressively later. ;/
he was my only hospital birth. i remember the nurses were so PROUD of me for not getting pain meds. they just kept saying, "are you sure you don't want anything?" "just a little something to take the edge off" they said, "you don't understand, we just never see this, and it's your first baby."

i should maybe have changed my mind after they gave me pitocin, towards the end. ;))

i went in "THINKING" i was in labor at 2 am the 23rd.
i chuckle as i look back.
my first baby. how do you know what to expect?
i CLEARLY did not know. :)))
i was 2 cm. they sent me home with some sleeping pills.

i was sad about that.
but i did sleep. :))

i went back at 2 am on the 24th, and was 6 cm,
and they let me stay. :))

kaden rockwell was born at 1:31 p.m. in the afternoon. ]

there is nothing like your first baby is there?
he is the one who made me a mama for the very first time.
i don't know how to be a mom...he is the one i get to "try" things out on.
those poor firstborns. :))

so thankful for kaden.
he is solid. he is a leader. he is a snuggler.
and emotional.
he loves sports. any. especially baseball.
he is getting to be chatty. about big people things.
he knows a lot. his life experiences are big.
he doesn't like to work.
but he can if you make him. or entice him with money. :))
he is determined.
and starting to challenge my authority.
eeeekkkkkk. :/

this year kaden went to a boy cousin sleepover at his cousins house.
it happened to be on his birthday.
kind of fun. he had a blast.
just strange for mommy not having him around on his birthday. :)))

i didn't get as many pictures of kaden as i usually do.
he just wasn't here.
he was bummed about the picture part.

stay home next year. ;)

oh kaden.
it is my hope and dream for you.
that you will always know your worth.
you will stand strong in what you believe in.
and lead others to the Lord...

you are loved. and treasured so.

Monday, July 7, 2014

10 U baseball.

what a wild ride this baseball is.
whew. this mama is worn out.
playing baseball since school has been out.
practice every night.
then. games every other night, sometimes every night.

i was talking to another more seasoned baseball mom last night.
i was wondering for what else in life do we drop everything, and do something.

maybe in farming. when you have to bale hay, etc.
i guess maybe, there are some similarities.
but. this is crazy.

drop. everything. and go.
lucky for us, Christiana hosts the 10 U tournament each year.
so, last year, we were playing in new holland, but this year, it was christiana.
yeee.haaa. i like it.

anyway. to make a long story short.
our team won districts last week.
so. now we go to sectionals. they start next week.

i am taking my kids to the beach tomorrow.
just because.
kaden is missing practice. and we are going.
daddy will be busy with straw. so. we are just going. that's all. :))

i am so proud of kaden. he has had such a SUPER attitude throughout this post season.
all stars is tricky. maybe there is even some politics involved.
dare i say that outloud? ;))

anyway. kaden was thrilled to be chosen to be on the team.
he was also on the team last year, and didn't play a huge amount...
and it was frustrating for him. because when he did play, he played in the outfield.
which is not his position.

long story short. i reminded him of what that felt like, last year.
but he still wanted to play.

same thing this year. same coach too.
he plays. but usually doesn't start, and has never once played catcher.
which is the whole reason why he made the team to begin with. :/ he plays outfield.

he has been so steller. sometimes mama's attitude has been worse than kaden's.
eeeeekkkkk. no good.
life lessons. i suppose. life lessons.

anyway. all that to say,
we have our first sectional game on monday night, at solanco.

go OCTORARA!!!! :)))
(and thanks karen for all these pictures).

Saturday, June 21, 2014

fishing. and tractors. and all star baseball.

it has been  said that kaden is spoiled by his paternal grandparents.
he is the only grandson. :)) 

kaden has been going on this fishing trip, with his poppy, probably since he was 6 years old??
i guess it's a man only trip. that's the only thing we can figure out, since none of us ladies
have ever been invited. :))

this was one picture poppy took of one of the fish kaden caught on tuesday.


last week we had vbs at our church.
i was the craft teacher.
and i am not kidding. it WIPED me out.
i am exhausted.
what fun.
something i love, but i did not figure prepping and preparing and doing crafts with 100 kids
would be so exhausting. :/

since the rest of us were tied up with vbs, that meant daddy got to have one on one time with
our youngest, karolina.
one evening they returned poppy's special tractor, to his house in gap.

apparently, karolina was waving to every car they passed...
and some man from delaware stopped to see if he could take a picture, and then,
sent it to matt!

funny. as long as it doesn't turn up in some magazine for people not taking adequate care of their children.


and kaden made the all star baseball team, which he is thrilled about.
mommy is less than thrilled.
all.the.pressure. is ENORMOUS.
i can't stand it.

i really think i would be fine if my children did not want to play sports.

he was at baseball camp all week at our school, from 9 am until 3 pm,
and would come home, and then go to all star practice from 6 pm until 8 pm.

exhausted. he is.

tourney starts next saturday.
we will see how they do. look pretty good, i must say.

here we come williamsport.

just kidding. :) but. maybe. who knows? ;0)

Saturday, June 7, 2014


we love watching these boys perform.
this time they did a katie perry song, "roar".


Wednesday, May 21, 2014

life update.

i am just swirling around in a big tidal pool.
that's kinda how i feel somedays.
if i can keep these kids and their schedules straight, it will be a small miracle. :)

last week i was putting laundry away at 8:30 p.m. when it occurred to me that we completely forgot Kaycee's hip hop dance class that night.
just. completely. forgot. it.

i know. it's only going to get worse.
go ahead. and laugh.

this must be part of what my mom "meant" when she "said",
"you are going to have all those kids for the rest of your life"
when i was in the midst of having babies in close succession.

i am sure i will discover all of the "rest" of what she "meant" as time goes on. :)))

i can tell that the school year is officially winding down.
i find it hysterical, that in the midst of the hard winter that we had,
all the "chatter" about the kids not learning, and retaining, and we are missing so many days,
and now, we still have 3 weeks left of school, and the chaos has started.

field trips. parties. fun days. track and field days. last spelling tests of the year.
projects. permission slips. concerts. baseball games continue. dance recitals. piano lessons, etc.
it's crazy.
we still have learning time left, people.
keep teaching them.

kaden's little league season is soon coming to a close.
he still loves baseball.
he loves to play catcher. but has also played a lot of 1st base, 3rd base and did some pitching this year as well. he never found his groove with hitting this year. he hit. but not well.
he thinks it's the bat. he wants a "good" one. :))
it has been fun to see him and his teammates progress over the years.
it still makes me nervous every time he gets up to bat, or pitches, or makes a play.
i guess this is the life of a mother?

we also found out last week that kaden has a learning disability.
i cried for about 2 days.
tears of relief. excitement. sadness. fear. all wrapped into one.
tears for all those kids who don't have a mom who battles.
for all those kids who squeeze thru the cracks. whose moms have given up the battle,
because well. it's easiest. the public school system did not make it easy for me to fight for my kid.

it's been a long road that has taken a year and a half of battling it out with teachers and administrators.
he was very hard to diagnose. because "they" kept telling me...
"he's a great kid." "i know." I would say. "but he has tremendous amounts of trouble writing. and spelling." "he reverses words and letters...still" and the psychologist's answer to me was, "i have high school kids who still reverse letters sometimes." hmmmmmm. i thought.
well. if my kid can have a fighting chance at NOT being a child who reverses letters in high school,
well. then i want to give him that opportunity.

they always had an answer.
i heard for years that "he is a boy. it just takes boys longer. be patient. he is such a hard worker. his test scores just aren't supporting
your thoughts and feelings." which, i admit they weren't. he was testing "fine"...but i just had this
sinking feeling that there was something we were missing.
they did keep saying, "you are the mom. if you feel something is not right, we want to know about it." but
at the same time, i felt like they kept telling me that I was the one who was nuts.
it was so frustrating.

i had become one of "those" moms.
i battled for my kid.
i am thankful for my sister's encouragement. she is a teacher and reading specialist and had seen my
concerns. without her support, i would have given up the fight long ago.

and finally. FINALLY. they tested him.
for over a week.
long.rigorous. testing.


a 40 page report later.
we know there is something going on.
that brings relief. excitement. oh man. a whole set of emotions.

and it's dumb.
he is alive. he is a brilliant. hard working, determined, compassionate young man.
i know. i know.
i have so much to be thankful for.

but no mom wants to see her kid struggle.
that's all.
i know all of his struggles, initially with reading. then with spelling. and now with writing.
they have all made him a fighter. i know it.

anyway. all that to say.
we are waiting to have a meeting where we will determine the next steps.
he goes to 5th grade next year. a transition year.
a locker. whew. and. hopefully. just hopefully a year marked with change. for the better. not struggle.
i devoured this book in a little over 48 hours.
i love to read. but don't take the time to do it nearly enough.
i cried. a lot. wow. it is fabulous.
a beautiful story of redemption. but how heart wrenching the road to get there.
READ it. ;)))

and just because.

working on end of year projects.
kaden's has to do with chickens. that's all i will say.

kaycee did her's on gabby douglas.
gymnastics gold medalist at 2012 olympics.
has a great life story. and actually her movie is in redbox right now.
great movie.
for the whole family.
watch it. :)

so. there is a little catch up of my life.
spring brings about the busy whir of matt's life and businesses as well.
karolina has been a rockstar at using the potty.
my easiest kid by far. maybe i lowered my expectations a bit.
guess that was helpful. :)

calli is gearing up for kindergarten in the fall.
4 in school. i don't know how i will manage.
the mounds of paperwork on my desk from 3 in school is absolute craziness.
and i count myself an organized person.
eeeeekkkk. matt would probably disagree.
(however, i tell him often that growing up in a household with just ONE brother, is way
way different to manage, then a household with 5 children. just no comparison...i don't know if he buys it or not? but he should. ) :))

life is busy.
we strive to keep our kids activities to a minimum.
we strive to keep our activities to a minimum.
electronics. we don't have many. and i will strive to keep it that way as long as i can.
i am trying to be so intentional in protecting my kids.
without homeschooling.
;)) i have the utmost respect for those who do.

i think that's enough from me.
have a great day lovees.

(Kaden's on 2nd here...not quite his "build" on first. )   ;)) 

Friday, May 9, 2014

Easter. 2014.

pretty much simply said.
when there is a photographer in your family.
it is a perk. a bonus. and ya have pictures.
huge bonus.

my brother, mark, and his wife, heather, have beautiful pictures.
of everything.
not just their family.
their homes. their vacations. their life. in general.

so. when he's around. it usually means there will be some pictures going around.
i got them today.

here are some fun ones of my family.
from our Easter celebration last weekend.


Friday, April 25, 2014

Just another day on the farm.

Must have been a good morning. Matt took these pictures with his *blackberry.
His title was "farming bliss". :))))